my world, my playground

oh jeez,…. i hate it… i hate this damn electricity…

i don’t know what cause this short-timed brownout… (O.o). all of sudden, the electricity just got off then went back no more than 3 seconds! how’s that?! did someone play this string things? heck, my plan in posting here and in other forums ruined. well, maybe “Someone” out there wants me to stop from surfin’ the net. aw…

*okay,enough. shut your mouth, jam…*

fine, whatever… i’ll pick a topic, by the way…

i’ll tune in to dreams. i am a junior high school student, and as expected, you must be prepared for college. a scary college will be just a few steps away.

i always wanted to be a pilot. yet my parents don’t gave in to approval. the prob? my being hearing impaired.

i couldn’t hear birds chirping if a thing catch my attention. it seems like, once my attention grabbed by someone or something, i’d rarely hear others. i couldn’t pay my ears anymore to surroundings.

i nearly gave up when teachers complaining ’bout this. same goes with the people who stab behind me for this too simple reason. you know, they’d say:

“damn, jam can’t hear”

“agi, bungol”

“hay, bingi…”

well, is that so?

then they would put again their nice mask when i’m in front of them. i know who you are, you dumbass. i know what’s behind your byotipol peyses.

do you know what will i do if there’s no limit here? i will slap their faces. i will say to them, ” you dirty soul, if i didn’t pay attention to you all because i didn’t hear you, then put the cow’s sh*t in your mouth. you’re better off that way!“

i’m kinda disappointed too… because in spite of my being goody-goody friend to them, they don’t seem to care.

hmpf, bahala nga kayo! di ba kayo natutong magpakatotoo? wow, nasa parochial school po tayo ganyan ang asal na dinadala nyo dito sa eskwelahan!

okay, back to topic.

my dream might cause my hearing to damage again, that’s their reason…

i can’t do anything to let me enter to that kind of field. well, even expressing a sweet gesture to them don’t work. tsk…

even the line about not letting my disability of not to hear normally won’t make any sense.i think there’s no more options to do a hearing-disabled like me.

but, wear again the happy face of yours, ’cause i’ll say AJA to be successful!

this time, i’m hoping God would reach out to me to guide especially in college. i promise myself to finish studies, and that’s my priority. someday, i will be successful & i will promise to work hard for me to be a hundred times richer than my recently status!!!

bwahahahahaha!!!

joke lang no… basta, success lang, okay na!

well, i made countdown to June… remember the month of June? yeah, it is back to school! how’s that???! oh, i miss my bestfriends and family back home!

I’ll miss my manila days… i had travel here and there. i was free from books again. and i can use my mp4 player and a laptop the whole day. i could be online nearly 24 hours! yes, all of these are my favorite things..

but those are temporary. i can’t do them all the time. i have my minds working again to hit those big books again with no sweat. i just hate to wake up very early to avoid being late. i hate to read books and memorize every single detail to get that nearly perfect score in quizzes. i hate to be nervous again just because i’m worrying over examinations and quiz bees.

almost everything in school are my no-no. it seems like they’re choking you against breaking “minor laws” like not wearing black hair accessories, not wearing id, not participating in this and that.

but i have to go to school as if i’m oblige to do that. i have to do things i don’t like since it’s for my future, as what the common lines goes by. i can’t take pictures inside the classroom if my teachers are there. i can’t bring along my laptop to fill my boredom in lectures. i have to deal with the plastics (tupperwares and orocan don’t count. :dizzy: ). i have to get that high scores for my parents to be proud.

i want to shout to the whole world how i hate June! but, err, my voice can’t even reach from tacloban to manila,DUH! [br] :bowl: :bowl: :bowl: :dizzy:

i’m here in manila, far from my hometown… how’s that?! yeah, i’m alone here while my cousins are in their offices…

i am through with my assignments for the day…

i received no comments from my friends in friendster and grouperz (heck, i have only 2 friends here in grouperz…). i’m here in condo. i’m staying here for days. my cellphone has gone stupid. it didn’t work and i have problem with this celfone battery. its usage is very low…argh…

okay, back to the vacation, my cousins and aunts are my shopping companions :biggrin: . most of my new things are bought in divisoria! wow… all of them are rarely seen back home since there was no single mall, only department store (and “laggish” :dizzy: ).

i’m just wondering if this is the feeling of being far from where your love ones(almost) are. my bestfriend and i are trading friendster comments these past few days. it was like a chat. i was shocked when i discovered she haven’t enrolled yet for this coming june all because she’s been waiting for me to go home and enroll together. i was touched by this. i nearly cried for “no reason” at all. but it was no big deal since she’s nearly depends on me. yeah,… maybe because we have lots of friends but only two of us know that there’s not a lot of them to choose from. you may guess that there might be a “plastikan” in school. yes it’s true. [br][br] the truth is, one of my purposes in staying here for long is to observe some of my college cousins. they are acting like an independent persons. they are the ones who clean the rooms, washing their laundry clothes, and doing some household chores, even they have stay-in maids. they said, that things are their everyday routine when fresh college days in their life came. hmmm, do you think they could be my role models this coming college? hahaha, *peace to my cousins!*

anyway, i can’t say i enjoyed my vacation. but indeed, what i’ve written here are some of my solitude’s lessons. thanks God you let me see the glimpses of college life.

wow, i’m newbie here in wordpress. my layout idol told that this wordpress is a good one for a bloggers like her… she even made a customized theme for everyone’s wordpress… so, i tried to browse this website and signed up… this is good for those who want to express their feelings through internet world and not by the diary!

well, i am busy switching programs and fixing things here and there…. i mean, i am busy here fixing for a post and a  beautiful theme layout. i am busy sending emails to my friends back home. so, yeah, i nearly bash myself to wall for no reason at all.. tskk…

okay,… i’ll be back soon…